The Limbo of Waiting
On the Race, I had some friends that would laugh at me because I would write a bunch of blogs, but never let them see the light of the Internet. “They aren’t perfect yet.” “I can’t think of a title” “Does anyone even care to read them?”
Well, I am letting this one see the light of the Internet. I hope you are blessed…
Oh how many times I run ahead. It’s the classic story. I have a tendency to lack patience when it comes to God’s timing, so I take it upon myself to move His story along.
Why do I keep thinking I know better? Why don’t I trust the Maker of both the stars and my soul to have the best for me? Why do I keep running ahead like I know the plan?
These are the questions I am asking myself as I sit on the upstairs patio of our host house in Manila, Philippines (month 8). I spend a lot of time up here listening to God’s voice and hearing all the love and dreams He has for me.
In my heart I know that “all things work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose” (Romans 8:28). Sometimes my head, my emotions, and my flesh don’t believe that. Or choose not to for the sake of something to do. Because waiting is hard.
On the outside, waiting on God looks empty, uneventful, boring. But if you look at what it does to your spirit, you’d see the opposite.
When you say “no” to your flesh because you know God has better, something happens in your spirit. When you say “yes” to your flesh, something also happens in your spirit. You have to choose which side you will be on. You will have to choose most moments of your day.
When you choose to say “yes” to what God has for you, even if it means waiting, the things that happen to your spirit outweigh all the other things you could have received if you had said “yes” to your flesh.
I know I’m not alone in this. Some things we seem to believe more than others. For example, I believe that God’s timing is perfect on what I am to do in my next season after the Race. However, sometimes it’s harder to believe that His timing is perfect in romantic relationships and my lack of being in one.
God has plans. I believe that to the very core of my being. The part I am still working on believing is that His timing with those plans is perfect.
So, for those who feel like they are alone in the limbo of waiting, don’t believe that. You aren’t alone. You aren’t forgotten. You are safe in the hands of the Father of ALL good things.
Take heart.
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